An email I wrote to the ex after he humiliated me and THEN sends an email saying he "loves" me...

What, no whores tonight? Guess you've been busy all week with them and being balls deep in C (his ex wife) and J (her roommate) when they were in town, since you haven't reached me until now. Whatever though. I just don't care anymore. Don't have a love bone or a care bone in my body anymore. You know, since I'm so sick, insane, crazy and everyone in Cali thinks I'm a joke and all.
I must be just as worthless as you. But it doesn't matter. I will prevail and be a better, stronger person b/c of you (and that isn't a compliment). You, and you alone, did this to me. So continue making fun of me and making a fucking mockery out of me. That's real fucking cool, but I don't expect anything less from you, you self consumed bastard.
I thought I loved you and that you loved me, but you don't treat people you love like shit (and that goes for me and you).
I hope C was better in bed this go 'round. My guy has been pretty good, well for now. I will get him where he needs to be, much like all the girls you've had to train since being out there.
Don't respond to this as I will delete it and not read it and then I will block you from email. You know, since I'm crazy, etc and you humiliated me in front of a lot of people. But that's what an insecure person, like yourself, does. Make a mockery out of everyone and anyone for a fucking laugh.
Adam, the joke is on you. You have lost me forever. Don't ever expect to see me or touch me again. I'm better off without you. I'm saying all of this on a clear head. No alcohol and no pills. I don't need anything anymore. I have a great life and fantastic scenery. Those are my drugs and what gets me off.
I'm going to find a man to treat me good and who doesn't yell and throw shit in my face all the time and one who doesn't try to control me and tell me what I can and can't do.
I'm not going to wish you luck or to take care b/c you do not deserve it and I probably don't either, but I'd never make a mockery out of you if you were severely depressed and sick, but you did me and that's unforgivable.
Late

-I felt so much better getting that shit off my shoulders. He really is a piece of shit. This all stemmed from the other night when I said some mean things to him, after he got mad at me for not answering his calls. He then proceeded to show everyone in a bar how mean I was and tell everyone I was insane, sick, mean, and I needed help. Well, that's what he said he did, which I'm sure he did. He made a mockery out of me for shits and giggles with 4 people I knew and loved. I know they think I'm an effing head case now and that humiliates me. I know it shouldn't, but it does. They all know how he is, but he continues to manipulate them and charm them, so they are blinded like I was. (I so feel like Kelly Taylor when she busts out of the New Revolution! EJ, that one is for you!)
What made me go off on him was he sent me an email last night saying, "punkie (my pet name), I love you". The sorry bastard doesn't know what love is b/c if he did, he wouldn't be such a worthless prick.

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